The Only Constant is Change

Tomorrow is a big day for me. I have not been this scared since I was sent home with my first baby. Tomorrow I have orientation for my job. I know it is no coincidence that I was able to finish my course, take my final and get my final exam results the very day that the company I wanted to work for announced they were in need of new MTs (medical transcriptionist). I feel that my Heavenly Father is just pouring out these amazing blessings and I have not room enough to receive it.

I applied, took their test and was offered a job. Their expectations are very clear as well as the consequences of not meeting those expectations. There are so many thoughts running thought my head and so many emotions going through my heart. One minute I want to shout and scream and jump for joy! The next I want to crumple in a corner and cry. I, myself don't understand it.

I basically have the greatest set up anyone could ask for. I work from home, so my commute is a stroll across the hall. The dress code is nonexistent. I guess I could work in my skivvies if I pleased. The schedule is flexible and I will still be able to drop my kids off at school, and pick them up. I will still be here if a need arises. I guess my main concerns are that I won't be a good mom. I know how much I had to put off there requests for water, snacks, play, etc. while I was in school and I'm afraid they will resent me? I don't know! I've been assured by a good friend that after a month or two in the system, getting used to the doctors I will be faster and be able to finish sooner in the day. I'm praying that this is how it shakes out. I feel like everything has fallen into place so beautifully and that it was meant to be. I have followed the saying "Work like it depends on you, pray like it depends on God." Of course I will work my hardest, but I'm also scared my best won't be good enough.

I was just starting to enjoy blogging again, but it may be a while before I can find 5 minutes to post. Again, I will do my best.